Infertility + Marriage: How to Survive + Thrive

Kevin and I will celebrate our 4th Anniversary in December. I can’t believe all that can happen in just four years. As we gear up for another FET, I wanted to share about our infertility journey has completely changed our marriage and I wouldn’t have it any other way. By the time we had been married a year, we had lost two pregnancies, experienced two D&Cs, visited a fertility clinic, and started IVF. The first year of marriage is normally one of the hardest, but add in any sort of trauma and you could have the makings for disaster. For us, our marriage saw some of its highest highs right after each of our losses. We stopped fighting about trivial things. Our communication grew deeper. He was the only other person in the world who knew what it was like to lose that child. Our child. It wasn’t always easy, but there were a few things that we did that made it easier for us to come together instead of everything tearing us apart. I wanted to share these “tips” with you today. I call them “tips” because I am no marriage expert. This is just our story and our experience. […]

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Lifestyle Changes: My New & Improved Morning Routine

I’ve been talking a lot about my recent lifestyle changes, so I thought I’d go ahead and film a video showing you what a typical morning looks like these days. I also wanted to share the recent change I’ve made to my kitchen: OUR COFFEE BAR! I love this new addition for so many reasons: 1. I love my morning coffee, 2. It has freed up a lot of counter space, making my kitchen look so much less cluttered and clean, & 3. The framed printable is so cute. It’s nothing glamorous, but it’s functional. I’m just really into it. See the pictures below! Excuse the cords that are showing, but hey, this is real life. I’m not a professional Instagrammer! The baker’s rack was purchased on Facebook Marketplace!  Also, check out my morning routine video below! Hope you enjoy! What are some things that YOU like to do every morning? Comment down below!

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All About FET, How to Survive & 5 Tips for Success

As a seasoned veteran when it comes to IVF & FETs, I thought I would share some tidbits of info regarding the FET process. If you’re wanting to know what an FET is, what to expect & some tips I have for being successful, keep reading! What is a FET? First things first, a FET (frozen embryo transfer) cycle is different than an IVF cycle. IVF refers to the entire process, including stimulation/egg retrieval and (typically) a fresh transfer. With a fresh transfer, the embryos are transferred back into the uterus as soon as fertilization occurs. There are a lot of clinics that are moving to only doing frozen cycles as they are showing to have greater success. Embryos can be allowed to grow for 3 or 5 days before cryopreservation (freezing) occurs. The reason behind doing this is that you’re transferring over embryos that are strong enough to have made it to day 3 or 5 and survived the freeze/thaw process. All of my transfers have been FET cycles with 5 day blastocysts. We initially did an IVF cycle, then waited for genetic testing before going into our first FET cycle. Timing is everythingThe entire FET process is unpredictable. […]

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How I Completely Changed My Diet (Without Hating My Life) | Lifestyle Changes

After our 4th miscarriage, which was an IVF pregnancy, I decided that I had to try something else. I’ve never been much of a believer in holistic approaches to medicine and health, but I had heard so many success stories from other women going through similar struggles. I decided to give it a shot. All of the lifestyle changes I have made are listed below, along with tips + tools that helped me on my journey! Acupuncture There are many, many studies showing that acupuncture increases the effectiveness of FETs, decreases the risk of miscarriage, and overall makes you feel better during pregnancy. Not only do I have the risk of miscarriage and hemorrhaging to think about, but I also tend to have terrible nausea + vomiting. I started seeing my current acupuncturist in May and immediately loved it. Surprisingly, it’s a very relaxing experience and for 30 – 60 minutes each week, I’m calm. Along with the acupuncture, my clinic recommends a specific diet, supplements & herbs based on your needs. I started taking 5 additional supplements, a few herbal cocktails and drastically changed my diet. Within a few weeks, I could feel a difference. Diet Changes Avoid animal […]

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Disappointments + Delays

Here we are, 7 months later. There has been a lot of life lived in the past 7 months, it’s hard to wrap my head around how much can happen in so little time. In February, I had a hysteroscopy to remove some retained tissue from my miscarriage/D&C last December. I healed from that very quickly and was able to start meds and have my 2nd frozen embryo transfer on March 18th. We transferred two embryos and both successfully implanted. Kevin & I were over the moon about having twins.  Sadly, that pregnancy was full of complications. Soon after finding out I was pregnant, I started spotting, which turned into bleeding, then passing fist sized clots. I was diagnosed with a subchorionic hematoma, which I had also had with Wyatt (though not nearly as much bleeding + clotting) and are very common with IVF pregnancies. Both babies were doing okay and both heartbeats were found. A few days after the scariest bleeding episode I’ve ever had, one of the babies was no longer there and the other’s heartbeat was fading. A few days later, that heartbeat was gone too. I had lost both babies. It was much earlier on than […]

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5 Things To Do When Your Loved One Has a Miscarriage

All grief is messy and everyone experiences it differently. Grieving a miscarriage has its own unique challenges. It’s isolating, dark, and often feels like something you shouldn’t even talk about. It often makes people uncomfortable. If you haven’t experienced a miscarriage yourself, it’s hard to relate and know what words to say. This is in no way bashing anyone who has ever said, done or not done the things listed below. The majority of the time, people’s intentions are good, but it’s hard to see that when you’re in the thick of grief and loss. I wanted to provide tips that would help both those that have experienced pregnancy loss and those around them. Here are just a few “do’s” for when someone you love goes through this traumatic loss: 1. Say something. There are no perfect words to say. Nothing will take away the pain, anger, confusion, etc. Likely nothing you say will even help, but saying something is better than saying nothing. After three miscarriages, I can honestly say that the support I received after each one was different. People are a lot more vocal the first time around, I think because it’s easier to rationalize it as a random […]

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Another Miscarriage | Dealing With Recurrent Loss

Happy New Year! After an extended break, I’m really hoping to be far more dedicated to blogging this year. We’ve had quite a lot happen in the past several months, some wonderful and some not so. Wonderful: Wyatt turned one and started walking. Not so: We found out we were pregnant at the end of October and then had another miscarriage in December. Since Wyatt was born, Kevin & I knew that we wanted to wait until he was a year old and then go through another round of IVF. We met with our fertility doctor (RE, Reproductive Endocrinologist) in October once Wyatt had fully weaned. Everything was setup for us to start the prep for an embryo transfer on my next cycle. I started feeling off shortly after Wyatt’s birthday party and randomly decided to take a pregnancy test. I like to take pregnancy tests randomly much to the dismay of my husband. The test was both very faintly positive (according to me) and obviously negative (according to Kevin). I decided that just to be certain, I’d go in for a blood test. Once I got my negative result, I would ask about being put on Provera to induce a […]

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Figuring it Out

I have always struggled with anxiety, specifically OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). Not in the cute way that is portrayed within society these days but in the I washed my hands so many times a day that they were bleeding way. My struggle with this disorder has put a damper on my relationship with God because I have often found myself feeling that I needed to “fix” this “issue” before God and I could really connect. Fortunately, throughout the last 6-7 years, I have realized how absolutely absurd that way of thinking is. And I’ve been able to fix that incredibly broken way of thinking. Unfortunately, I do some backsliding on this and find myself having the same epiphany each and every time. The funny thing about mental health is that just when you think you’re “cured”, something happens and you feel like you’re back at square one. Over the past week or so I’ve experienced on of those setbacks. I blame it on hormones and entering the third trimester, plus what woman isn’t at least a little bit anxious knowing she’s about to be responsible for another life? This is uncharted territory, I think I’d be an anomaly if I was completely calm. But, […]

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Unnaturally Knocked Up

I realize that while I may have intended to truly blog about my IVF journey, I kind of fell short. There’s a lot that I have not mentioned on here. I really want to give an accurate picture of what this whole experience has been like for a variety of reasons. Hopefully someone that may end up going through this process one day will find this helpful. And maybe others will just get a little enlightenment. We started the IVF process back in November of 2015. Initially, there were blood tests on top of blood tests done to determine if there was any cause to the multiple miscarriages we had throughout last year. There wasn’t a “reason”, at least not a medical one, that could be found. We were given a few options: try again naturally under my RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist)’s supervision (with additional medication once I became pregnant), try again with Clomiphene to speed up conception time (not really an option for us, since we were already conceiving within 1-2 cycles) or IVF. IVF was the most aggressive choice. The “We’re ready for kids now” choice. I don’t think I ever went into why we made the decision to be so radical. […]

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Breaking the Silence

And just like that, it’s almost three months later. Obviously I intended to blog about many things that have happened since December 16th, like the recovery from the egg retrieval, genetic testing results, starting my medications for the frozen embryo transfer, the embryo transfer itself…and many other things. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like sharing. I wanted some part of this journey to be “normal”. Private. The longer you go without writing, or blogging, the tougher it gets to break the silence. Do I address the time I spent not sharing? Do I just sweep it under the rug? Of course this is probably way over thinking it, but I’m a woman and isn’t that just what we do? So, to make things short and sweet. I’m sorry for the time spent away. I have a lot of thoughts, stories, and tidbits of wisdom to impart on you all. But, first, I just wanted to say hi and we’ll get to the rest of that shortly. More soon!

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