Unnaturally Knocked Up

I realize that while I may have intended to truly blog about my IVF journey, I kind of fell short. There’s a lot that I have not mentioned on here. I really want to give an accurate picture of what this whole experience has been like for a variety of reasons. Hopefully someone that may end up going through this process one day will find this helpful. And maybe others will just get a little enlightenment. We started the IVF process back in November of 2015. Initially, there were blood tests on top of blood tests done to determine if there was any cause to the multiple miscarriages we had throughout last year. There wasn’t a “reason”, at least not a medical one, that could be found. We were given a few options: try again naturally under my RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist)’s supervision (with additional medication once I became pregnant), try again with Clomiphene to speed up conception time (not really an option for us, since we were already conceiving within 1-2 cycles) or IVF. IVF was the most aggressive choice. The “We’re ready for kids now” choice. I don’t think I ever went into why we made the decision to be so radical. […]

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Catching Up!

Since I’ve been slacking on updates, here’s one to catch everyone up on weeks 16-19! How far along: Nineteen weeks, 3 days. Gender: It’s a BOY! I’ll post the reveal video at the end of this post. Weight gain: About 4-5 lbs. Maternity clothes: Pretty much all maternity, except a few tops here and there. Stretch marks: None, yet, still using the cocoa butter cream. But sometimes I do forget. Belly button in or out: In. Sleep: Not having as easy of a time falling asleep and I wake up several times throughout the night to change position. Best moment this week: Getting more confident that I’m feeling movement! I still question it every time, but I’m definitely more convinced that it’s him and not just gas. Haha. Worst moment this week: A lot of gas and indigestion. Miss anything: Still nothing. Movement: Pretty confident that I’m feeling movement, especially when I’m laying in bed, or sitting for a while. It’s faint still, since he only weighs about 1/2 a pound. Cravings: French fries and Eggo waffles. Queasy or sick: Still a little queasy in the mornings, especially now that I’m completely off of Diclegis (the medication I was given for the nausea/vomiting). But nothing too terrible. Looking forward to: The next ultrasound, which […]

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Past Post: (Almost) Fifteen Weeks

*Written on April 22, 2016* How far along: Fifteen weeks today! Gender: Finding out tomorrow at our gender reveal. I’ll be taking video and pictures of the party and will definitely share that in a blog post. Weight gain: Not exactly sure, since I was throwing up so much during the first trimester/wasn’t weighing myself, I don’t know what I ended up at. I’d guess not more than 1-2 lbs. Maternity clothes: A mixture of maternity & non-maternity. Stretch marks: None and I started using Palmer’s Cocoa Butter Stretch Mark Cream yesterday. (Verdict so far: smells amazing!) I’ll do a thorough review later on. Belly button in or out: In. Sleep: It’s getting harder and harder to find a comfortable position lately, I definitely see a pregnancy pillow in my near future. Best moment this week: Realizing that I actually look more pregnant than just bloated now. Worst moment this week: Morning sickness kind of came back, but luckily it’s not as bad as it has been. I’ve only gotten sick a couple of times. Miss anything: Still nothing. Movement: None yet. Cravings: Cantaloupe and (still) tacos. Queasy or sick: Mainly in the mornings, I’ve gotten sick a couple of times, unfortunately. Looking forward to: Finding out the gender! And the next ultrasound! As mentioned above, […]

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The Announcement

I have already posted this on Instagram and Facebook, but wanted to make it official on the blog as well… WE’RE PREGNANT (!!!) I have many more things to say and now that I’m out of the first trimester/don’t feel like complete death, I am actually able to tolerate sitting here long enough to say it. Though I’ve been very absent lately, partially due to the sickness and also the anxiety of when to share, how to share, what to share…etc. I’m going to start doing weekly updates from here on out, so I can really document this pregnancy. I have plenty to share about the first trimester, so that will happen soon, too. Expect the good, the bad, and the ugly. There were some bumps along the way. This has by no means been an uneventful pregnancy, but we’re just so thankful for it anyways. How far along: 13 weeks, 3 days (officially 2nd trimester, according to gestation & development!) Gender: We find out in about a week and a half! My vote is for girl, Kevin’s is for boy. Weight gain: Maybe 1lb., with all the morning sickness, I hadn’t gained any as of last week. Maternity clothes: Maternity bottoms, but I can […]

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Breaking the Silence

And just like that, it’s almost three months later. Obviously I intended to blog about many things that have happened since December 16th, like the recovery from the egg retrieval, genetic testing results, starting my medications for the frozen embryo transfer, the embryo transfer itself…and many other things. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like sharing. I wanted some part of this journey to be “normal”. Private. The longer you go without writing, or blogging, the tougher it gets to break the silence. Do I address the time I spent not sharing? Do I just sweep it under the rug? Of course this is probably way over thinking it, but I’m a woman and isn’t that just what we do? So, to make things short and sweet. I’m sorry for the time spent away. I have a lot of thoughts, stories, and tidbits of wisdom to impart on you all. But, first, I just wanted to say hi and we’ll get to the rest of that shortly. More soon!

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IVF Journey: The Beginning

It’s been a while since I’ve posted a life update on here. So much has happened, I have so much to share! The last time I talked about pregnancy/fertility was when we found out that I did not have a molar pregnancy, and that our timeline of waiting was going to be much shorter than we thought. A few weeks after that, I scheduled a consultation with a fertility specialist at Houston Fertility Institute. That day we discussed our previous miscarriages, health history, and all of the potential options, which ranged from trying again naturally with closer monitoring to IVF. To start the process, I had 26 vials of blood taken to check for any genetic/chromosomal abnormalities, hormonal levels, etc. Over the course of 2-3 weeks, all of the blood work came back in normal for both myself, and for Kevin. On paper, we were extremely healthy. On November 20th, I went in for an ultrasound to check on my uterine lining, ovaries, and follicles. At that time, we learned that I have a ton of follicles and again, am completely healthy. We also discussed what we should do next. Our doctor gave us several options, from the most conservative to the most […]

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A Letter

Today is November 21st, which was our due date for our first pregnancy. I wrote a letter to our little angel baby and wanted to share it with everyone. In case you, or someone you know, is going through miscarriage, stillbirth, infant loss, etc. I am posting this in hopes that I could be of help to someone going through this emotional experience. My little angel baby, I didn’t want to write this, but I feel if I don’t publicly acknowledge it, it’s as if I’m not acknowledging you. You existed. You were and are a part of me. Part of us. Your daddy and I planned for you, prayed for you, and loved you. We dreamt of all the things we would do together, the memories we’d create, and the person we would raise you to be. I knew I wanted you to love God, love your family and always love yourself. I didn’t get to find out if you are a boy or girl, but I didn’t care. I just wanted you, whatever you were and whatever obstacles life may bring. And then we lost you. You went to heaven far too soon. I don’t know why and I […]

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Some Whining

I’ve been playing around with the idea of writing about a certain topic for about a week now, but I kept hearing so many stories of bigger things going on in other people’s lives that made it seem so trivial. And it may be. Regardless, this is something I know affects us all, so here goes. My last blog was about how I was okay with having Crouzons, and happy with myself, which is mostly true. But, there are obviously things I struggle with when it comes to my appearance. I’ve come to terms with most of my insecurities and deal with them as best I can. Until about 9 months ago. After I found out I was pregnant the first time, my skin and body started changing – obviously. That’s what happens when you’re pregnant. The frustrating part is that due to the unfortunate circumstances, I ended up having a D&C instead of a baby, so I didn’t have a “consolation” for my new insecurity. After the first miscarriage, I decided I wanted to get healthier, so I started eating a little better, drinking more water, and doing yoga. It really helped and I noticed a difference in my […]

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Crouton Baby

This may come as a surprise to some of you that know me, but I was born with a genetic disorder called Crouzon (or croutons, as I used to call it) syndrome, which basically means that the bones in my skull were growing prematurely fused together. This prevents the skull from growing “normally” and affects the shape of the head and face. It’s pretty rare, occurs in about 1 in 150,000 people, but because neither of my parent’s have this disorder, it’s extremely rare and surprising that I somehow was born with it. I guess it was just meant to be. Having Crouzon’s doesn’t change life much, except one major difference: surgeries. As of 2005, I’ve had 13 reconstructive surgeries on my skull and face, of varying severities. I have a few unique skills because of these experiences, like a high tolerance to needles, a love of doctors (the good ones), and an innate desire to research everything (I assume that’s where it comes from). I can also go into a fast food restaurant one time, then return several months later, and the person who took my order originally will remember me. I guess I have a memorable face. Kevin says it’s […]

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Scripture for Healing

Whether you’re healing from a broken heart, period of depression, miscarriage, loss of a loved one, or any other pains of this world, I hope that these will provide you with a sense of peace and renewal. Many of these verses play back in my mind during times of need, like Isaiah 41:10, while I was waiting at the hospital before my last surgery. This is what the Lord says: I have heard your prayer and seen your tears. I will heal you. 2 Kings 20:5 Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 Behold, I will bring it health and healing; I will heal them and reveal to them the abundance of peace and truth. Jeremiah 33:6 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait on the Lord. Psalm 27:14 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31 He heals the brokenhearted […]

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